A Southern University Student Arlana Miller has shared a long Suicide Note after battling depression.
Arlana went on Instagram to share a goodbye post. She thanked everyone who has been in her life and talked about how she battled with depression.
The long post has got people reacting. All attempts of getting in contact with her family have been unsuccessful.
“May this day bring me rest and peace.” She wrote. “I have fought this urge since my early teenage years. I gave this life all the fight I had. To everyone who has entered my life, I’m so grateful and I can only imagine how this may find you. I have been surrounded by people who may have honestly thought that I was okay, but I haven’t been okay for a while”.
She continued: “I struggled so much through just this year alone. From covid to tearing my ACL, to nearly failing all of my classes. To the people in my life, I pray you to learn to vocalize your feelings and get help always!!! I failed at that and I’m afraid it’s too late.
“MOM, THANKYOU SO MUCH, I pray you know I’m at rest now! You would’ve given anything to see me happy, you have given everything to see me happy! I’m happy in the water where everything is still and peaceful. I have written so many suicide notes in my life but finally, I’ve reached my end. I hope this teaches everyone to check on your “strong” friends, be present always! I’m contradicting myself but NEVER give up!!! I know that I’m letting a lot people down by what I’m about to do.
“But… truth is I’ve already let down so many people throughout my life and it just feels unbearable. I’ve lost my connection to God. The devil seems to have won. & that is okay, I blame no one for this! I thank everyone for all they’ve done & IM SORRY IM SO SO SORRY. But thinking about how everyone else would feel about my death is not enough either, I’ve tried to please and make everyone else happy my entire life.
“I’ve been dead inside for too long. To everyone I love, just remember that this is not your fault and I pray you don’t find guilt in my situation. To my grandad… I wish you were here to tell me I’m being stupid, to tell me it’s not worth it, but you’ve left me & found your own peace. I’ve always been stubborn and prideful just like you. I always dreamed of becoming so many things that I am today, but they just aren’t enough. I’m not enough. I haven’t felt enough for a while.. but I say all this to say, I’m done fighting.
She continued, “My battle is over and I pray everyone finds peace in that”.
According to several reports, she has committed suicide. At this time, there hasn’t been a word from Southern University and her family. Read Updates Here.